If a Man Has Faith

This might be better read in context with an earlier article I wrote many years ago:

https://leepylant.com/1998/01/01/i-dont-know-much-about-god-but-im-glad-he-knows-a-lot-about-me/

If, as a result of divine revelation, a man has faith, what be just punishment for behavior contrary to his faith? Some amongst us say eternal damnation would be his just reward. What would allow a man to take such a risk?

When a man is born into this world, is he wholly good to start out? My belief is yes, he is good and worthy of all blessings so relatively recently bestowed.

When does a man reach the point that he is morally responsible? At adulthood? When is that?

Before having become morally responsible, who bears the blame for shaping his morals?

When a baby is born the mother is morally responsible for its wellbeing. Fathers share this moral responsibility of course but he may not still be living or may not be suited to the task. Compared to the mother’s, the father’s emotional and spiritual connection to the child is less than by virtue of his having not lived with the child in the same manner as the mother prior to birth. For many this disparity in parent to child closeness persists longer than for others, and for some the disparity is never made up. If for no other reason than this, a mother’s rights to the child are greater and onus for upbringing heavier. (Dare not say this is not fair. This is life, which by its nature is not fair.) If this be true, does the mother bear more blame for immoral adult children than does the father? Mother’s should get a pass on … most things.

I believe in Jesus Christ. I believe he was a man who walked this earth and that he indeed proclaimed to be the Son of God the Father. I believe this with all my heart to be true. I believe He foretold the story of His death and believe He spoke to God on that fateful day of Blessing. I believe I also am a son of God the Father. I believe I am the brother of Jesus and the brother of all mankind. I believe every sentence in this paragraph began with the word “I”. So sayeth Wint.

Should another person write down the story of Christ’s life and while doing so make proclamations about God and His nature, who amongst us may say that his proclamations are false? Who amongst us may say that another man may be in sin because he does not adhere to another’s proclamations? Is it not sufficient to claim one’s own beliefs in Christ?

When two are gathered and between them exists a communion of belief, are they so by empowered to levy punishment on another who does not share their beliefs?

As does practice within all the various colors and hues of church, paradox abounds in the Written Word . My Father leaves me not at the mercy of another but rather girds my loins with armor. Yet, caution is wise.

When any man asserts the nature of God, he attempts to usurp God’s authority. Woe be to him, and to any who might agree with his assentation’s.

None amongst us today will be with me when I leave this world. Should my spirit persist beyond my perception of current reality and I am yet aware of this life, I expect to stand alone and hope I have honored God by execution of this life, which he generously bestowed on me. I believe the gift of life Given by God is a commandment to own it and to execute it. I believe my life execution will be the basis for God’s judgement in my afterlife, should one exist and should He chose to Bless me a second time.

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Meeting My Daughter’s Mother

She sails in the room, in which I was present,

Countenance demanding attention, eyes turning, including mine.

As though unawares she nearly flies with grace and assurance,

Like a damsel on a bowsprit, damn she looks fine!

 

Though it be days, before we met,

My thoughts were hers, without exception.

Almost explosive, as close as it gets,

Were feelings of lust, animal attraction.

 

Two score and six, years have we sailed,

Jibs full , wind at backs, hearts full of passion.

A steady vessel, never have we flailed,

Riding life’s waves, her and her captain.

 

– For my lovely Katherine.  May we ever embrace in the bow of our love.

Wint

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Residue

Where in the world do we go when we die?

Can you really swallow it’s up in the sky?

Maybe it’s hot if below we go.

Does it really matter? Do we really need to know?

 

What will you change? What will you do?

If I tell you now about residue?

Residue you say? What does this mean?

After living your life, residue is what you leave.

 

Residue in the lives of those you have touched,

Thoughts in the minds of those you have loved,

Pain and sorrow for those who love you,

Eased by the presence of your residue.

 

Residue spreads through service you have rendered,

Into the lives of those you have tendered,

Reflected in the acts of those you inspired,

Is residue from a life touched by God’s fire.

 

(Written in memory of Christine (Winnie) Winston and Hoyt Hudgens.)

Love

Wint

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You will be judged

You will be judged and you will pay penance. Not in this life you say? Lord knows what happens in an afterlife, literally! No, my friend, it is in this life penance is paid.

When you look in the mirror and examine a life, penance is paid. When you look for a friend lost, penance is paid. Only in courts is penance paid in cash. For people of honor and truth, penance is paid from the heart.

Who will be your judge and levy the fine? It is you, has always been you, and forever will be you. Others may attempt judgment and try for recompense, but true penance can only come from within, where the Trinity resides.

Escape is not an option. Where ever you run, you are found. As your shadow in the sun, so shall your penance follow your self-awareness.

Good News! There is always Good News! You are loved! Closer to you than even the shadow is God’s love. Breathed into your soul whilst nascent in the womb, before you managed your own breath, was God’s love.

Have another look in the mirror. Do you see Him? He is poised to catch the arc of the gavel as you move to convict. He offers clemency, forgiveness and love. No matter the perceived crime, He is looking upon His creation and rejoices in its perfection.

Trust in the Lord for it is from Him that all blessings flow.

Wint

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One of the Bestest Days of the Many Best Days of My Life, a.k.a. "Just Another Day with Barb"

Some of you regular readers may know the esteem in which I hold my brother Barb. While you may have heard a disparaging word from me from time to time when referencing him in past stories, you know he is … well, he is my brother.

Fudge … I’ll have to a break here. Aye gosh but this is a rough start to telling a good and fun story.

OK, I’m back.

Being the manly man I am, it is challenging to be so transparent with my feelings. Being the honest man I am, and desiring to tell a well told story, I am so.

OK, let’s get to it …

One of the best days of my life was with Barb on a hilltop just off the Prairie Divide in the mountains of Colorado, west of Fort Collins. Barb, having shucked his socks and boots, was stretched out napping and I was hunting up manageable sized boulders to push off our hilltop in hopes they would make the meadow below. The pretense for our presence on this hilltop was elk hunting but we were both very involved in activities far from that. The afternoon was at once incredibly mundane and … satisfying. Such are my times with Barb.

While rolling boulders off the hillside, I pondered such life mysteries as to why uncles and aunts become less interested in nephews and nieces as they become older and what benefit to the ecology are turtles. I know not what my myriad of aunts and uncles are up to in their lives anymore and, though I frequently see turtles, never witness any meritorious behavior from them. Conundrums to be sure. 

About the time I began wondering when something would spur my brother into action, for it was mostly Barb that was our initiator of fun, he asked in an angry voice what the heck I was doing. Having no reasonable answer, I did not respond but continued testing boulders with my boot in hopes of finding one I could roll about. When I next glanced his way I saw he had turned his head so he might watch my activities. Unashamed, I gave a boulder a last roll and down the hill it went. Barb had to shift himself in order to see the result of my efforts. He remarked that I was not making much change on the landscape and likely no one would ever appreciate my efforts. I replied something about classic art and artists.

As I gazed upon my handiwork, desperately trying to locate any one of the numerous boulder I had rolled down the hill, Barb was suddenly on his feet crouching like a wrestler and hissing with demanding urgency, “We’re hunting! We got a bull!”

My response was as one who suddenly realizes he is being watched in foolish behavior and shyly looks around for witnesses. Wide eyed I followed his gaze and found myself looking to an adjacent hill a mile or more from our vantage. That hill looked no different from the untold number of times I had peered at it from many other vantage points over the preceding days of our hunt. It was a dominant hill that could be seen from many locations within the ranges we were hunting. This was another occasion, for there have been many, when Barb demonstrated he was the more capable, and wiser, hunter. Not that he is a domineering sort of fellow or anything, but he is however a bit of compassionate dictator. Nevertheless, on this occasion he again showed his hunting prowess and once I raised my field glasses I located the two elk grazing that distant hill perhaps three to five hundred feet higher in elevation than our hilltop. Not only were there two elk there, at least one was a bull! We were hunting indeed!

For those of you reading that lean towards disparaging hunting and hunters … shut up. That argument is for another time. For those of you who have ever caught sight of game, when also holding a weapon, you know what happened to my heart rate and my emotions. Game on! Let’s move!

Unlike the day before, when we followed bear tracks across ridges crags, valleys and meadows in hopes of at least spotting a bear, here we had game in our sights, albeit a long way away.

Having learned to hunt elk mainly from Barb, I’ll point out here that while we were tracking the bear mentioned above, we indeed were still elk hunting. For elk hunting is done mostly by trying to find on which part of the mountain they are. So any activity that carries you through the mountains also provides you the opportunity to scout for sign of elk. Elk, unlike whitetail, tend to move in herds and they travel great distances. Your typical first sign of elk is likely to be disturbed earth. An elk herd cannot move without leaving obvious sign of their presence. Hunting requires patience and attention to movement and sound. Following fresh bear track helped us in this regard, though neither of us had experience with what should be done were we to actually encounter one. It certainly helped keep us maintain that hunting edge though, as we made our way.

After throwing on his socks and boots, and with us both having donned packs and rifles, off the side of the hill we went doing our best to maintain a steady fast walk and not an all-out sprint. Fortunately our path down was at a point of the hill where it was transitioning from the north facing to east and where trees were first making an appearance. Thus provided cover, we were able to swiftly make our way down the hill.

For the unlearned, trees grow only on one side of the mountain. I know this quite well and I know, okay suspect, this has something to do with how much sun a particular side of a mountain gets. No matter.

Having made our way to the saddle between our hills we had some hundreds of yards to cross where me might be seen by the elk. We could not stop long enough to determine where the elk were so had to proceed as though we were always in plain sight. In this scenario elk hunting requires humility. You must humble yourself to the clownish looking behavior of acting “elk-like”. Acting elk-like involves bending at the waist while walking and swinging your free arm as though it were another leg. Sighting bull elk in the field is rare enough that this clownish behavior felt very un-clown-like and rather I felt very much the hunter. This day was a first for me. Never before had I sighted a bull elk in the field, much less while carrying a rifle!

Saddles are my favorite part of a range. They provide a vista from which game may be scouted and the majesty of mountains may be witnessed. From the valley, or lower saddles, one might spy an elk, mule deer, or a whitetail motionless standing in a saddle. When availed of this opportunity I can tell you from experience that it is … magical? In your mind’s eye you can see their very hooves while they stand silhouetted against a clear sky on that pinnacle. All animals demonstrate this capacity to simply watch for long spells without moving. Makes some wonder what they might be thinking. Hunters know … “they ain’t thinking nuthin'”. However majestic, they are dinner and must be kilt if you want to eat. For you sympathetic types, this goes for the meat you buy at the gettin’ place too.

Further to this, on the topic of mountain parts … for the uneducated amongst you reading, mountain tops are the highest hills, hills are places where you can only go down, saddles are between hills, and drains run off both sides of a saddle. A valley is where you find the creek and the way back to camp. For the uninitiated, DO NOT try making your way back to camp any way other than by the creek. In the end it will take you longer going another way and may be dangerous to boot. Stepping down from my high horse …

Once located, elk are not hard to get close to if you control your excitement and are deliberate in your movement. On this day we were lucky in our position and the availability of a ridge on the far side of the saddle laying between us and our quarry, for we were not particularly in control of our excitement or our movement. But close to our elk we were soon to be! Holy cow! Uh … I mean bull!

Have you ever seen a kid get so excited they lose their mind and start running wildly? Maybe they even run into things that are in plain sight. Such was the excitement I felt. I felt compelled to aimlessly run around shouting like a knucklehead! But Barb was steady and enabling me with heart thumping in my chest to stay close at his heels!

There have been times I wondered if he, Barb, was really all that he seemed. You know the guy that talks a good game but folds like a girl when the going gets tough? Never in my life have I seen my brother thrown. Okay, there was that time in Simington he got thrown by a bull, but that’s a story oft told, but yet written.

Having made our way up the ridge to about the same elevation as the hilltop from whence we started our stalk, Barb silently indicated we should ease our way into the trees and over the ridge for a looksee. My position was a bit higher than his and, his being already well into the trees, the hillside the elk were grazing came into his view before mine. He waved me off going deeper into the trees and indicated we needed to go higher. Well shuck me running! Didn’t even get to see ’em! Back we go to our hunched over elk-like stalk moving up the ridge side.

When next we took a peek on the other side of the ridge, we were on the same elevation as the elk, and they were still grazing the hillside! My having played first base came in handy as I deftly caught my heart as it jumped out my chest!

Our elk were at two hundred fifty to three hundred yards with their heads down grazing. My bull, I say “my bull” ‘cuz this was Barb putting me on a bull, had good sized antlers and, as it turns out, six points on one side and seven on the other! His companion was not to be seen.

Lest you get the wrong impression of our position, let me draw you an image. My shooting shoulder is lust above my left arm. Looking up the hill, my shot was to my right. Sharp shooting is not a skill in my toolbox and so an offhand shot without a rest was out of the question. After finding a good vantage from which to shoot, I sat my butt down. No one sits down with their feet pointing up hill without rolling ass over heels, so my feet were pointing downhill. This put the elk to my left. Nice shot for a right hander which, as mentioned earlier, I ain’t. This meant I had to turn around and knell on the upward facing hillside to attain a suitable shooting position. Grabbing a smallish tree trunk I fashioned a shooting rest of sorts using my forearm.

Now in position to shoot I took aim. As I struggled to get my breathing under control, Barb hisses, “Don’t shoot!”

With my arms tired from the strain of excitement and from holding the rifle at shoulder height, it was a relief to hear those words, and I lowered my rifle. Again, for the inexperienced, try holding a three to four foot treated four by four at shoulder height for a full minute and then act like you are going to shoot something with it. Good luck with that shot!

Quizzically looking at Barb for explanation, I found him pointing further up the hill from my bull. The reason for his missive became clear when I spied the missing elk. Turns out, it was another bull! A twofer! Now what?

Creeping up closer to my position and pointing to the other bull, Barb uttered, “After you shoot I’ll shoot that guy.”

So I resumed my awkward shooting position and again began working on my breathing. It was soon apparent my breathing and excitement would not be totally controlled so I took my shot. The hit had little appearance of hitting the bull though I knew my aim was on target. Knowing a single shot kill on a bull elk was rare, I shot again. My second shot was followed closely by one from Barb, who it turned out was shooting my bull as well. Down he went!

That Barb shot at my bull was not at all surprising to me. Many times had I listened to stories of bull elk running off with multiple well placed bullets in their body. The rule of thumb is, “Keep shooting ’til they drop.”

Barb turned his attention to his bull and took a shot. His bull not immediately going down was, to my excited mind, reason for my shooting at his bull too! In my excited state I took an unwise, and as it turn out, an unnecessary shot. We had two bulls down!

For the type of hunters I tend to spend time with, the excitement of hunting is dampened by the kill. Killing is not the sport. Getting yourself to the circumstance and place of the kill is what’s thrilling. That’s why it is called “hunting”, and not “killing”. So it was with muted excitement, camaraderie and respect that Barb and I first hugged, then shook hands.

Shaking hands, for men of our ilk, transcends time from when early man first used an outstretched hand to show no mal-intent as they approached one another. The shake was the first communication between equals. For it is in the shake that future intent is indeed communicated. How long the shake, how firm the shake, even the vigor of the shake, all contain important messages. Customs associated with the “shake” are known well by all men, not unlike the way rules associated with peeing when around other men are observed and well known. More on these topics can be found in another story.

Successful hunters do not immediately go to a kill even when their quarry is lying, apparently dead, in plain sight. Many are the inexperienced hunters who have gone home empty handed as a result of spooking a wounded animal that jumped and ran on their approach. So we sat down and talked of the hunt. We talked of our excitement. We laughed at our elk-like stalk across the saddle. We cried from emotions, whose source and intensity were mysterious. We looked at one another. Our gaze was open, apparent, clouded, unknowable. We were truly “with” each other. We were together as we had been as boys trailing our father through the woods in our early years. Oh, our father. Were he only here!

Dang it! I’ll be right back …

Okay, I’m back.

Our father, who has since died, was not with us on that trip, but that did little to dampen our spirit. Such is the nature of selfish children, as judged by this parent.

After time to enjoy a good cheap cigar, which are the best by the way, and more excited talk about how we were going to manage having two bulls down, we gathered our gear and headed off. Now in the mountains it is unwise to take a beeline to your destination, as this requires much up and down walking. While more time consuming, it is more efficient energy wise to maintain elevation. In order to get where you are going and maintain elevation you must walk in towards, and out from, the mountain. And so we did until at last we emerged into the open hillside where our elk lay.

Here were our immediate results …

Me with my elk:

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Barb with his elk: http://1drv.ms/1DrI59k

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Well … for me this has been both a fun story to write, and an emotional one. Seems I cannot talk about Barb or our father without getting emotional. Blessed and Highly Favored by our Heavenly Father am I!

Later I’ll follow up this story with how we got those elk off the mountain and in our bellies, but for now, it’s “so long pardners!”

Wint

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23 Years is a Pretty Long Time

23 years is a pretty long time,

But if your sweetheart was like mine,

You’d be in love til the end of time,

That’s why she is my valentine.

 

Thinking back to those words “I do”,

My soul is filled just thinking of you.

 

Love ya’ babe,

Wint

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The Day of the Buckwheat Pancakes

Riding home from church with my family as a little boy we always passed a Pancake House. My plaintive pleas never moved my parents to stop. In hindsight it is plain to see it was not my parents desire to leave me awash in near overwhelming desire, nor were they miserly with their love and gifts, it was their pocket book that pushed us past the Pancake House each week. Though I had no idea, we were poor.

In our youth my brother and I spent a good portion of our summers on our grandparent’s farm. Near the end of my third grade school year and summer poised, as we made our way home from church one Sunday my parents promised that if I made no “D’s” report card, we would stop at the Pancake House on the first following Sunday. My summer at the farm that year was filled with exquisite anticipation of receiving a letter from my parents telling me I had no D’s. It would have to come by mail you see because, while there was a phone in my grandparents’ house, the phone was on a party line and used only in emergencies. There were no unlimited calling plans in those days and my grandparents were even more poor than us.

Receiving mail was rare for my grandparents so checking the mail, at the communal collection of mailboxes down the highway, was done only during the even more rare trips to town. Needless to say, my excitement was near fever pitch each time my brother and I rode to town with my grandparents. We passed the mailboxes both going to and coming from town and it was with a mix of hope and caution that my eyes soaked in their mailbox as we made our way to town. You see, the mailbox was on the wrong side of the road to make the stop going to town and was most convenient on the return trip. It was like Sunday mornings going past the Pancake House all over again! How could God, if there was a God, tease and tickle my soul so ruthlessly?

While there were missives from my parents early that summer filled with blather about missing me and my brother, none contained the all-important information about my report card. Finally the day came. All my hard work in school … yes, hard as is to believe for those who know me, I worked hard in school as a boy, especially that year … had paid off! No D’s!!! Overcome with excitement as I was, I knew this would be my longest summer ever at the farm. And, it would be another week beyond that. After my parents gathered us from the farm at the so distant end of summer. I had done it! Pancakes were to be mine!

“I taught I taw a puddy tat!”, my brother hollered as he let go of the rope swinging around his head. The rope he had been holding was tethered to a tire swing hanging from a majestic oak in the dirt driveway of the farm. My mind has long since lost the meaning of that phrase we hollered all that summer, but the words come crisp and clear in my memory. My brother … Barb. Never in the annuals of brotherhood has there been a finer brother. He was older than me by fourteen months and was a buffer to a father who was authoritative, demanding and … disciplined. Barb was bigger, stronger and more loved than me by our father. Those long sweltering days of Texas summers so long ago looking for “Something to do”. To this day he is Barb to me, though most know him by his “adult” name. No starring role for him in this story but he is the star of my youth, and remains a star for me today. Enough said about that right here.

Okay, things got away from me there for a bit. Back to the story …

The gray velour seats in my parents old black Chevrolet gave off puffs of dust as I beat them with excitement when at last that summer came to an end and, my parents, having already collected us from the farm, we were nearing the Pancake House as we made our way home from church. My feelings that day have stayed with me and I reminisce back them when I achieve some current modicum of success in my life. They say, “Success breeds success.”, and I believe them. The day of the buckwheat pancakes was the culmination of determined effort from a little boy who was now reaping the rewards.

Once in our seats, looking at the Pancake House menu brought no relief to my overexcited state of being! In my state of mind, reading through the variety of breakfast offerings was tedious. Not only were there too many varieties of pancakes on the menu, there were pictures of eggs, toast, fruits and such on the menu that were also very enticing. There was French toast! My God! My mother’s French toast was only outdone by her pancakes, which were the best. It was all overwhelming for this little boy.

To dispel any doubts with regards to whether my mother’s pancakes were the best, let me relate evidence presented on the mornings in which she delivered them to our breakfast table. Our father, being our father, always received the first pancake from the skillet. Not knowing the first pancake always sticks and produces a less desirable pancake, I thought it unjust that he always had the first pancake. As a father myself, I know the sacrifice fathers make on behalf of their children. Both large and small. That father taking that first pancake plays huge in the mind of this father today.

After having a bite of that first pancake, my father always said, “Average.” We, my four siblings and I, would groan. For we knew he would say that and we knew better. We also knew he would then follow up with, “Baby, your average beats everyone’s best!” While we “got it”, it did not make hearing “Average” all that easy. My parents were the best. Never has a child rested more peacefully cradled in the bosom of love, than me in those days. Oh to go back to those times! I invite you to go with me. Come! Let’s go! Carefree in the knowledge of who you are and where you fit in. Remember? So it was then, and can be for me today if only I pay attention.

Once my eyes caught Buckwheat Pancakes on the menu I knew they were what I wanted. I’d never had buckwheat pancakes but my childhood hero, Roy Rodgers, ate them. No doubt it was buckwheat pancakes for me.

Now I know what you are thinking, “Oh no! Not buckwheat pancakes!” Living in 2015, as you were if you are reading this, you know that buckwheat pancakes might be okay for some kind of health nut, but totally not suitable to a young boy in 1960. Who in their right mind would let a little boy order buckwheat pancakes? But let me they did.

When the buckwheat pancakes arrived it was all I could do to get butter and syrup on them before beginning to shovel them in my mouth! At my first bite I learned that reality may not always live up to expectations. They were terrible. I was crestfallen, and I’m sure began to cry.

My father, as was his wont, took pity on me. He took my buckwheat pancakes and gave me his “normal” ones. As with the first pancake out of the skillet, he sacrificed for his child. My father gave so much to me is so many ways, large and small. While his sacrifice to me that day played a small part in my mind at the time, in contrast to its exciting start it was what saved that day and allows it remain as one my favorites.

So ends the saga of the buckwheat pancakes. But days of that type are what formed the values and ideals that I carry as an adult. Such was the impact my father had on my life. He wanted me to be happy and was willing to make sacrifices to ensure it. In hindsight, his sacrifices were often and no less significant than on that day of the buckwheat pancakes.

My father is long dead but he lives on as residue in my heart and mind. May that residue be manifest in the love I give to my daughter, my Squid. Ever be her heart as filled with excitement and joy as was mine on the day of the buckwheat pancakes!

Love ya’ Squid!

Dad (Wint)

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2015_01-29 – Visit with Mama

Mama was in fine form yesterday.  We had a long and pleasant visit.  Her only disappointment was the discovery that I was not “available”.  🙂

During my visits it seems someone from the staff always comes to her room for something.  The skeptic in me wonders if these visits are encouraged during staff team meetings, but expect my concern for Mama’s wellbeing is what feeds my skepticism.  Taken at face value, I am encouraged by staff attentiveness and I witness from them compassion and fondness for Mama.

I see Mama routinely but recently, due primarily to work and some hunting, not with past regularity.  She remains about the same with yesterday being her best day this year.  She is so sweet and easy to laugh that our visits are never “bad”, just some less satisfying for me than others.

Quite often Katherine sees Mama too.  I can tell Mama likes having her there and, as in all things, she (Katherine) is a source of kindness and love.  How does a guy like me end up with girl like her?  Just goes to show, justice is not a given.  Thank God!!  🙂

While sharing about aging parents, and the associated frustrations, with a coworker this morning the concept of bravery not being the lack of fear but rather action in the face of fear came up.  His segued message was something like … compassion might not be the lack of frustration but rather sympathy in the face of frustration.  That fits for me.  So … I came to this …

I’ve been “ready” for not as long as I know Mama has been (as was Dad) and I ponder on why she is still here.  From the Color Purple …. “Lord god, if there is a God, why?”  I long ago decided the God of my understanding neither dictates the path of my life nor does he manipulate the lives of others to, or against, my benefit.  He is however an Ever Present Force for, and source of, good.  Today I will be patient whilst awaiting mindful reason.

I try to mind my expectations of Mama and to not put her “on the spot” with regards to her cognition and awareness.  For future visits I will redouble my efforts to not put her on the spot by pointing out that I am her son and that she is my mother.  Rather, I plan to pose as a friend that knows her son.  This will allow me a stage from which I may tell the same silly stories but from a third person perspective.  Likely this will be to my benefit rather than hers.  That’s okay, I deserve it.  🙂

I hope you get something meaningful from my updates and I will strive for more regularity with them in the future.

Lastly, thanks for providing me a safe outlet for my rants and ramblings.  Sorry if I get a bit long winded.  Obviously, I like hearing myself … write.  🙂

Love

Wint

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Allison 2014

On this day in 92,

God brought forth an adorable you,

To parents who love you like no other,

A blessing you are to Father and Mother.

 

A woman now in full bloom,

Loving a fella, a possible groom,

Owning a life and seeking independence,

Yet conservative and cautious with good common sense.

 

May this day be total bliss,

No curves, no fast balls, you cannot miss,

May all those around you show you deference,

Make your mark, be the difference!

 

Love

Dad

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9/11 – Please God, Let Me Never Forget

Two thousand eleven to two thousand fourteen,

All days in between,

Remembrances are often,

Overtime they soften.

 

Widows and widowers,

Fathers, mothers, sisters brothers,

Innocents and saviors,

Heroes and warriors.

 

Children … Oh God the Children!

Please God I beseech you,

Your comfort your solace,

On us all please bless.

 

– Wint

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